Jack's Fruit

 This vision came to me in a dream. I woke up at 3 am and had the word AXE in my heart and soul (anyone who knows me knows how obsessed I am with puns and my name... and I knew I had to do something w/ my name and the word Acts) I woke up with an unwavering faith in my ability to not only withstand any trials and tribulations thrown my way, but to transmute them into beauty. It was an odd feeling I had waking up at 3 am to God's word ringing in my heart and mind. I knew right away I needed to do something with this. I immediately looked online and saw that Actsofjax wasn't a taken domain. I paid for it and reserved it. Then I started a countdown timer to actually do something with this.  I wasn't sure what it was I wanted to do with it... but I found that I didn't need to decide. It decided for me... and I rolled w/ the punches and had faith in it all working itself out...

Less than a week later, one of the most traumatic life experiences happened to me. I made a phone call to my daughter's father and a policeman answered it. He told me that he was in a really bad motorcycle accident and that they needed the next of kin to talk to. I gave them his mother's number as I couldn't even think straight and called my daughter. We drove to the hospital where he was at and as we both parked right next to each other, at the same time, a helicopter was lowering onto the launch pad. I knew right away they were there for him. A short time later that lasted an eternity I found myself outside, watching the helicopter fly away without him in it. His blood pressure wasn't stable enough for him to leave, so he couldn't fly to get further help. He passed away surrounded by his loved ones while I watched the 3 children that he raised for the last 8 years embrace in tears and anguish at his side. It will forever be an imprint in my mind, heart, soul, whatever else could be imprinted. I had no idea what was in store for me overcoming this situation but I knew that I would and could do it, and like I had just dreamt nights before, I was carrying a battle axe through life and I'd be damned if I let go of God's hand here! I fully released everything to him not that long before this, and my life took an incredible change in the last few years. Nothing even visible to the eye... but the peace that rests in my soul is unrecognizable to what I was used to.

Over my life, I feel I have had some radical life experiences shift my thinking and align me w/ a better knowledge and recognition of how truly important we all are to one another.  I have always felt an irresistible pull towards my fellow human of all walks of life. I have conditioned myself to see past the skin and into the soul, and I have awakened my ability to recognize our unwavering soul ties to one another. I believe there is something tremendously beautiful in every single situation we are faced with, whether or not we are interested in seeing things as so. I believe if we can invest just a bit more of our time and energy into helping another's journey on this earth, we will be rewarded for that in what lies ahead for us all. I hope I can help influence those around me to continue walking one another home, in a safe and loving manner, and we can slowly change the world and bring more love back into our hearts. 

I would like to show you how I roll w/ life in hope's that it helps another, and I would like to learn how you roll w/ life in hopes that I in turn will learn and grow from my experience. I grow when you grow, I hurt when you hurt, I love when you love. I search for equal exchanges in my journeys on earth and I love to love love.

We are all just walking one another home.

I plan on beginning this platform as more of a Blog/podcast style approach. I think the best thing we can do to influence change around us is to lead by example and show/teach one another what we know. We are all puzzle pieces to one massive picture in life. What I hold closely, another lacks. What I lack, another will be shown to be for me to humble myself before them and learn from them. Whether it be in a physical sense, emotional sense, or any other sense we experience, there is something for us IN EVERY SITUATION that passes through for us. Let's learn to see it, the good the bad and the ugly. Let's learn to hold onto the unwavering hope that exists in our beings and learn to let go of anything that might be holding or weighing us down. The amount of freedom that comes when you surrender and let go... Give it all to God, it's too heavy for us anyways. I've found myself living to please God, but he gave his only son to pay the price for where we fall short. We try so hard to do right and be right, yet we forget along the way that Jesus Christ paid the price for our sins. He died for us to live an eternal life with God, because THAT is how much he loves us! He already knew we would disappoint, he knew we would fall short. So he gave his only son for US to be able to spend an eternity in heaven sitting at our father's side. The amount of love that comes from that thought...it just blows me away and I crumble on my knees and see the beauty in some of the darkest and most hopeless places. I strive to learn more and learn to lead more and follow with discernment those on the right path. I simply want to accompany all my fellow humans on their walks home and see the beauty in monotonous life activities we often times overlook.

Stay blessed and stay tuned.